[ before sunrise ]
Daydream delusion, limousine eyelash
Oh baby with your pretty face
Drop a tear in my wineglass
Look at those big eyes
See what you mean to me
Sweet-cakes and milkshakes
I’m a delusion angel
I’m a fantasy parade
I want you to know what I think
Don’t want you to guess anymore
You have no idea where I came from
We have no idea where we’re going
Lodged in life
Like branches in a river
Caught in the current
I carry you
You’ll carry me
That’s how it could be
Don’t you know me?
Don’t you know me by now?
Joe d’ Mango ‘s
A prayer for unrequited love……..
Here I am again, sobbing and drowning in my own tears. I have asked myself a hundred times why this is happening. Why I have fallen for the person who has and always gave meaning to everything that I do. I breathed for this person who made me believe that is is ok to love even if I am hurting. He made me believe that it is ok to suffer for the sake of our relationship. I though he shared my feelings. I thought he really loved me. But now I realized that this was just all about him and his own happiness.
Lord, I feel so alone now. I feel like there are no more tears to shed. Lord, I am lost because, all the while, I focused on trying to make this relationship work, I focused on what will make this last. I never realized that I should have focused on the one that I should have truly loved, and that is you Lord. You have loved me unconditionally and when the time I though I was all by myself, I realized that was the time you took me in your arms and said “It’s all right. I will take care of you.” Lord, thank you for never giving up on me. Thank you for making me realize that it’s You I should hold on to and not the memories I had with the person who took and broke my heart.
Lord, I pray for strength to carry this burden of unrequited love. I pray for understanding so I wouldn’t have to ask why anymore. I pray for peace in my heart because you know how much I am hurting right now. I have found my comfort in you Lord, in your promise, in your undeserved kindness and grace. Fill me Lord with your love that I may hurt no more. You are my strength in my weakness, You are my light in my darkness and You are my hope when I am lost in my emotions.
Thank you Lord for being my savior. I surrender everything that I am to your loving grace. In Jesus mighty name, AMEN.
now watching: Life of Pi
“Even when God seemed to have abandoned me, he was watching. Even when he seemed indifferent to my suffering, he was watching. And when I was beyond all hope of saving, he gave me rest. Then he gave me a sign to continue my journey.”
Suicide is never the answer.
Unless the question is “What’s it called when you kill yourself?”
Then yes, the answer is Suicide.
last can standing
that awkward moment when you discover the truth…
and you can’t handle it….